A continuation of 30 days of kink
Day 15: Post a BDSM/kink activity you’re curious about and would like to try.
As I’ve only comparatively recently consciously acknowledged that I have a sadistic side, I’m interested to revisit my masochistic elements.
The last attempts over the years for people to cause me intentional pain, had resulted in my martial arts and self defence training kicking in without conscious involvement, and before I knew it, they were pinned to the ground/wall/bed, with their arms wrapped high up behind their backs with one hand, my other hand or limbs poised to prevent any further movement.
Great for power play perhaps, not so great for the indented dynamic of the scene.
This was a few years ago though. So now, the more I play with sadism for pleasure purposes with a partner, the more I feel that for balance and education I should gain greater direct personal experience too. Based on my previous experiences, I know I’m not directly wired that way to get pleasure from pain (as I know some people are), but I would like to explore it further again.
It’s like massage: I really love giving treatments, and picking up on some of the most subtle indicators of what to do next. The obvious indicators are pretty good too of course. But I do forget sometimes just how incredibly nice it can really be to receive a massage. I know my clients enjoy it, but I do forget sometimes just how great it really feels to be massaged, and some of the things I do that I know work, just why exactly I do them.
I’m used to pushing myself through pain for a variety of reasons over more recent years, with receiving deep tissue massages, lymphatic release, intensive exercise, physical challenges on the boat, etc.
So I’m interested to know, with the right mindset, at the right time, with the right person, with great communication, and probably some decent bondage to protect the Sadist from me, how it would be different for me again now.
I’m sure it’ll be an interesting revisit of the experience!